It has been ages since something has crawled on this space and I was pretty sure that by now some immigrant would have encroached it and I would see lots of Jhuggi Jhopdi here, or may be I will find some family with 3-4 kids running here and there…but thank god, still the concept of encroachment is naïve in cyberspace…
When I look back to the time I wrote last, I can really see the changes…some good, some bad and some of no importance now….As Calvin has rightly said, “Know what’s weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change. But pretty soon, everything’s different.”.
Some friendships have grown over the time, some have waned and some totally forgotten; some relations have reached their expiry and some still enjoying the patronage; Many of my friends have lost their Bachelor status and gained Happy Go Couple status , some have become three from two (and I am counting how many addition of guests are happening for my own Marriage ceremony), some have gone through heartbreaks and many have got that special someone in their life (don’t ask me how many they got)…Many have changed their company, some planning to change and some planning to rejoin the first company…Many have got what they dreamt of, some still making a path to achieve that and some like me still standing on a crossroad, confused, choosing between the options
Looks like time has really placed a spell on me and I feel myself like an outsider experiencing it like a trance, I can still see the journey I have done so far and wonder how & when I traveled so far. Days when money crunch was always there, days when I didn’t need to think before calling my friend whether it’s a right time to call. Days when my call logs were not full of calls from my office and days when the only social circle I had was not of my office colleague and rickshaw-walls. Days when I was always running to catch a movie or to grab some snacks and not some stupid meetings.
It’s not that over this period its just loss, I have gained so much and I really appreciate that. I have grown up as a person, professional & may be as human. But as one of my friend keep saying, WE ARE SPOILED FOR CHOICES and sometimes these choices make us, what we are. These choices have made me realize many times “What if?” I would have chosen something different, “What if?” life would have been simpler, “What if?” that would have happened now…I have made mistakes, I have made good decisions, I have been emotional, I have been headstrong; but what really matters today is what I have been for myself and for those I care. I have learned one thing-don’t know hard way or simple way- sometimes exits are better then lingering on, sometimes u feel good hurting urself then hurting one u love, and sometimes its best to let the destiny lead the pack.
I have been to so many places and have experienced so much vastness, vividly different cultures, but the same core emotions. It has made me realize something, no matter where you are, where u want to go, where you should have been, all that matters is what you are and what you treasure…
In short, the last 2 years have been quite entertaining, inspiring and worthy of being lived. And I hope my comeback to this space will make it creative also. Though I have felt that I have lost the smoothness for writing, I think few more stupid and lame blogs will fine tune it.
